Is it ok that i hate my mother?

I hate my mother. She has a bipolar disorder and I have depression. Putting those two together, won't be pretty. The doctor told her that she needs to change her ways around me. But, she didn't and I'm getting more depressed. Suddenly, she is more strict, more distant, more agonizing. A whole 360 if I say. I cut myself because of it. She inflicts these sad and horrified emotions. Being in a house all day; by myself; is liberating you want your youngest daughter dead. I need help, I know. But, she needs to change or my life will be non existent.

I hate her but forced to love.

Is It OK To?
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  • No worries I feel the same way I hate my mom she is constantly on my back telling me what to do... what I found that help me escape my horrible home life was I found a teacher that I generally admire and we have grown really close in the past few months. The only problem is the school year is coming to a close and I'm afraid I won't see her ever again! Im in middle school currently and going off to high school next year. I'm planning on asking her for her phone number *I'm afraid that she will think I'm crazy if she doesn't already* hopefully all will work out. she means the world to me and I don't think I've cared about anyone as much as I do her.

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    • I'm sorry to hear you're having that problem. Would it be possible for you to take a class in summer school to get out of the house? Sometimes you can take summer school classes to get ahead, even if you haven't failed anything. Is there a library nearby? Maybe a community college where you can take a course over the summer?

      Try to find something you're really interested in then read, learn and bury yourself in that thing. Then again my gut is telling me that she probably puts down a lot of the things you enjoy doing.

      Please don't cut yourself, she's not worth it. Her bipolar disorder is not your fault. I am curious though since you said you've been cutting, have you ever been screened for Borderline Personality Disorder? Who knows maybe your mom isn't Bipolar, but might actually have BPD, because it's not uncommon to be misdiagnosed.

      Regardless, please don't blame yourself for the way your mom acts or the way she treats you. Try to find an alternative to cutting yourself when it comes to relieving your stress. Hang in there and be good to yourself, girl!

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