Is it ok to be fascinated by mutilated bodies

I remember messaging a guy who was into that and at first I wasn't turned on by it. But after a a couple of hrs of messaging each other back and forth he got me interested and would cybersex roleplay him mutilating my body, its extremely gory :)

what do you mean by interested? do you look pictures of it up?

More like scary

Oh i look at the human viscera all the time, since i study medicine. Its interesting to me

It’s very far from normal. I have met people who have been aroused by death related things before. We all have a level of natural morbid curiosity but when it brings you “happiness” as you described , and the only thing seeming to hold you back is logic I believe it could be healthy to practice developing more empathy for others and though it may be difficult ...actually actively trying to excercise that muscle of empathy could do a great good for you and others. IMO.

Think about something constructive instead, like spellcheck.