Is it ok to be obsessed with a girl
So my best friend is the most wonderful girl you can imagine. She's funny, she can be both cute and beautiful, she's kind, she's silly. But most of all, she makes me happy, happier than I've ever been, even when I want to kill myself and everyone around me, she just makes me feel good. It feels good to talk to her. It feels good to look at her. It feels good just thinking about her. She's perfect.
Now the problem shows itself when I tell you she's not interested in me. Now don't get me wrong, she has free will, she can choose whatever. But it just makes me want to strangle people when they take her away from me. Not even away for long. Even for a minute. It hurts so bad.
I do want to be a good friend so I'm always there for her. I know I am. Whenever she needs me I drop everything and try to make her feel as happy as she makes me feel every moment of everyday, and even when she says there's no point in trying I'll keep at it because I want her to know I care. I care so much.
Every moment of everyday I think of her. She's in my mind from 12am to 12pm. I always ask her if it's ok that we meet up sometime but she is busy alot and I understand. And before you say she's trying to avoid me, she isn't because she never goes off with other friends when she's busy.
My question is, is it weird that I'm so obsessed with her? I've tried getting with other girls to get my mind off her but I give up before it gets serious because I can't stop thinking of her. It's obvious I love her and she knows it, but I don't push it on her that I do. All I want is a chance and I want to know if waiting for her to give me a chance is the right thing or not. If it's not too much trouble please give me advice on this.